Yeh, I'm trying not to cry right now, that was really beautiful.

Isn't that amazing how priorities in life change as you get older, and things that you have have never wanted, or even told others with a strong conviction that you didn't want, suddenly become the little voice in the back of your head.

I find myself thinking about being a Mom more and more, and yet at the same time knowing that I'm so not ready for that responsibility. I go back and fourth with myself all the time. Granted, not having a husband makes the chioce rather easy atm ;p But I know that "family" is slowly creeping into my reasons for dating people, and a much bigger priority in how I look at a man, than ever before.

I know that some of it is natural, but I also know that some of it has to do with where my life has gone in the last few years. I've really put my foot into the, "adult" world for the first time. I'm working with people who have been married for years, and have multiple kids. Wheras before I was living anf working with mostly students while I was living in college town. I've seen people get pregnant, and seen their babies after they have given birth (a first in my life). I've watched them bring in their kids to the office on special days, or just on special occasions.

I just really think it's funny how two years ago, had you asked me if I wanted to be a Mom, I would have replied, "No!" and given a laundry list of reasons why kids are bad! Then again, had you asked me if I wanted to get married, I would have said the same thing, "not right now." I never grew up wanting to be a bride and a Mom, like some girls I've known. But I have grew into that idea, moreso now than ever before.

I attribute Spektra in part to that growth as well. I lurk in this section more than I post, but seeing things like 3D Ultrasounds, and just the normal types. Pics of people belly's, as well as discriptions of being pregnant has really changed me. Not to mention the beautiful newborn pictures.

I can honestly say, yes I want to be a Mom. I'm not sure when it will happen, but I do want too.