Before when I was asked to put my resume into the MAC counter's district manager at my mall, I was fine and completely not worried about the interview or anything, not even the resume.

But now I am, I talked to my mother about it and she told me that no matter what I have ever done, I have always been hard on myself and I have always had low self esteem in what I have done. I get praised for my makeup at my job now and my makeup application on other employees at my job, but for some reason I don't think I'm good enough for MAC.

My mother also told me that when I used to be an art education major in college that the reason I quit that major was because I hated every single drawing and painting I ever did and that I always thought everyone else's work was better than mine.

Then my art school friend called me and told me she had heard from my boyfriend that I was having a hard time with this and that I was extremely nervous.
She told me I had a gift with makeup application and that I should just try, that it wouldn't hurt to try and told me even though I was always hard on myself in college that everyone always loved my work and that I always tried so hard to impress myself, but that I always impressed everyone else.

I don't know if I should even try for the job now. Not to seem emo or anything, but maybe this is a disorder that I need to fix before I can get a job there? Does anyone else ever have this problem? Or do you think it might just be the jitters before a big interview? I had everything planned out in my head for my resume and I was so excited, but now I'm just trying not to bite my manicured nails. >_<

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