feeling really sad

[Dark_Phoenix]

So I'm sitting at home this morning (we got back yesterday and I haven't gotten used to the time change) and watching TV. We get satellite (none of us speak more than basic Norwegian) and I turn on "Cutting Edge" TV which does a simulcast of Adult Swim on Cartoon Channel in the States.

It's a really sad episode of Futurama ("Jurassic Bark") and I spend the last ten minutes of it crying like nobody's buisness. But it's just myself, my mother, and the staff here so I don't give a damn.... it ends with his dog waiting for his owner to get home until he dies as the song "I will wait a thousand lonely summers" is playing in the background.

So I've spent the last two hours trying to get my mind off of it but I keep thinking about it and it's so sad!! I love my dogs, alot. They're my best friends (I don't really have any friends, lots of aquaintances but they live on the other side of the earth).

My dogs are always happy to see me come home, and wherever they are, home is. Which means alot with how many places I've been to and had to get used to.

I spent the summer of '04 at home, alone for three months in Cavtat with just the house staff because my brothers were in school and my parents were working. You know who was there? My bichon. He's the one control in my life of variables.

And now I keep feeling so sad and guilty my hands are shaking and I keep crying. I'm scared that something will happen to them when I'm away. just couldn't deal with it if it did!

They're like family to me... my brothers keep moving away from home, and my parents are almost never home but my dogs are always here for me, waiting.

And I just feel really sad right now. And terribly, terribly guilty.

 

[MxAxC-_ATTACK]

when I read "sad episode of futurama" I knew EXACTLY which one you were talking about! I hate that episode because it makes me feel really sad too

 

[hunnybun]

i'm sorry darling -- don't be sad. you're lucky to have such loving dogs and they are very lucky to have someone that cares about them so much. don't feel guilty for not being with them. i'm sure nothing bad will happen. think good thoughts and just look forward to seeing them again.

hope you feel better soon

 

[frocher]

I agree with hunnybun. You are lucky to have such wonderful dogs, and they are lucky to have someone love them so much. I hope you feel better tomorrow.

 

[Dark_Phoenix]

Why the hell was this on again, not once, but TWICE today?!

And of course, being a loser I am, I say and watched it. Sitting here with my poodle and bichon in the game room... here, this is the part that did me in. Share in the misery.

"For a thousand summers, I will wait for you..."

Can I be a hardcore atheist and still believe in doggy heaven? I'm feeling really messed up.

I'm sorry, it's a bad night again. I'm all alone with the staff and my dogs. My parents are working... again, overseas in China and Canada. I can't sleep and our nurse keeps telling me to get off the computer.

I don't get it... are they the only ones who want to be around me?
In a family of seven people (not including myself) why am I so alone?

 

[MACATTAK]

I'm so sorry you feel so sad! I'm really close to my animals too. I have 2 cats, and love them like none other! Sometimes on TV there is a commercial about animal abuse, and a song "In the arms of an angel" by Sarah Mclachlan, ohh and it gets me every time! How people can abuse animals is a puzzle to me. They do nothing but provide me happiness & unconditional love. What do your parents do for work? Is there anyway you can spend more time with them? I hope you feel better.

 

[redambition]

omg i just saw that episode.. watching futurama dvds.

i agree - it is the saddest episode and it usually has me in tears. i was trying not to cry at the end this time