kimmy
Well-known member
this was going so well. i'm so pissed hahaha.
but anyways, here's what's up: there's this friend i have who lived a state away, so we didn't really talk a whole lot because i hate talking to someone but never seeing them. right before he moved back to california, we started talking again and we clicked. there's not many people i can sit on the phone with for much longer than twenty minutes and not get bored...we talked for hours. i thought about him alot. when he got back to california, i went to visit my sister and i visited him on my way to her house...and on my way back. being in his presence was so surreal, and completely perfect. being in his arms was the best feeling ever in life.
he doesn't want a serious relationship for a while, and i respect that. and i have no problem with him seeing other women, should he chose to do so. he's always been so honest with me, and like i was telling one of my best friends, i don't really worry about what will become of us because something is telling me we're going to end up together in the end.
i'm between jobs right at the moment, which has given me alot of time where i'm just not having anything at all to do. and that's where the problem is, since i've had all this free time to think about EVERYTHING, i've started getting kind of worried, and a little upset.
i miss him dearly. he's coming to southern california on my birthday (which i still say is a sign, dammit!
) but it seems so far away. and then, i'm thinking what if i'm not good enough? what if he finds someone prettier, smarter, funnier, all around better than me?
i never had these thoughts about him before...and it bothers the hell out of me that i am now. i want it to be how it was before, where the thought of him finding someone else didn't even cross my mind. this is no bueno.
but anyways, here's what's up: there's this friend i have who lived a state away, so we didn't really talk a whole lot because i hate talking to someone but never seeing them. right before he moved back to california, we started talking again and we clicked. there's not many people i can sit on the phone with for much longer than twenty minutes and not get bored...we talked for hours. i thought about him alot. when he got back to california, i went to visit my sister and i visited him on my way to her house...and on my way back. being in his presence was so surreal, and completely perfect. being in his arms was the best feeling ever in life.
he doesn't want a serious relationship for a while, and i respect that. and i have no problem with him seeing other women, should he chose to do so. he's always been so honest with me, and like i was telling one of my best friends, i don't really worry about what will become of us because something is telling me we're going to end up together in the end.
i'm between jobs right at the moment, which has given me alot of time where i'm just not having anything at all to do. and that's where the problem is, since i've had all this free time to think about EVERYTHING, i've started getting kind of worried, and a little upset.
i miss him dearly. he's coming to southern california on my birthday (which i still say is a sign, dammit!
i never had these thoughts about him before...and it bothers the hell out of me that i am now. i want it to be how it was before, where the thought of him finding someone else didn't even cross my mind. this is no bueno.
