KAIA
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I gotta say that i feel like sh** , i'm the worst daughter you can ever imagine and here's why...
It was about a year around mother's day, I had a big argument over the phone with my mom, I didn't talk to her for about 3 or 4 months after that. My mom and I do not live together, she lives in new jersey, i live in delaware.
So in this period that i had no contact with her, i started to call her ex - sister in law (my mom's ex-husband's sister , Isabel) so i started to call Isabel 'cause my brother Aaron lives with her (his aunt) and he doesn't have a cell phone... by the way , i gotta say that Aaron and his aunt Isabel live in Peru.
So on and on I was calling to peru to know how was my brother doing, so one day Isabel, told me that my mother was working in New Jersey as a prostitute (i feel so embarrased for this) when she said that, my eyes were all wet, I was so ugh disgusted and I just started to cry.. I asked her , who said that, she said that she wouldn't tell me names, but the X person who said this , also affirms that my mother was drunk on discos and doing drugs and stuff...
The worst of all is that while she was telling me all this stuff, I remembered that once like months before this call, I went to Jersey to visit my mom, and she left the house on a Saturday night , she pretty much left me there and she came back at 2 a.m DRUNK!!! like i had to take her to the bathroom to throw up, that's why i just didn't wanted to see her again, this episode made me feel sick to my stomach, sad, and dissapointed.
And I told Isabel that I believed what she was telling me, at least the one part of my mom drunk, 'cause I have seen her like that the only time of the year that I went to visit her... after that call, I didn't call Isabel again I was just emabarrased, and obviously I didn't wanted to know anything about my mother.. 2 months after that my mother left me a phone message saying that she wanted to talk to me and to call her.. I did call her, and i apologized for all the 4 months I didn't talk to her.. now things still fine ,but I still don't know if what Isabel told me was true or not, I know the awful part of this, is that i believed it!!!! my mom is crazy and she does act like she's 14 (no offense)
I feel like I betrayed her, first for telling Isabel that i saw my mom drunk, second for believing that thing, I never had a great relationship with my mom, she stop taking care of me (financially) at the age of 15, everything that i had was because of my uncle and my grandma, but that's another long story.
I pretty much needed to vent, i've been keeping this for a year, and it makes me sad when i think about it, and i'm still embarrased ...
It was about a year around mother's day, I had a big argument over the phone with my mom, I didn't talk to her for about 3 or 4 months after that. My mom and I do not live together, she lives in new jersey, i live in delaware.
So in this period that i had no contact with her, i started to call her ex - sister in law (my mom's ex-husband's sister , Isabel) so i started to call Isabel 'cause my brother Aaron lives with her (his aunt) and he doesn't have a cell phone... by the way , i gotta say that Aaron and his aunt Isabel live in Peru.
So on and on I was calling to peru to know how was my brother doing, so one day Isabel, told me that my mother was working in New Jersey as a prostitute (i feel so embarrased for this) when she said that, my eyes were all wet, I was so ugh disgusted and I just started to cry.. I asked her , who said that, she said that she wouldn't tell me names, but the X person who said this , also affirms that my mother was drunk on discos and doing drugs and stuff...
The worst of all is that while she was telling me all this stuff, I remembered that once like months before this call, I went to Jersey to visit my mom, and she left the house on a Saturday night , she pretty much left me there and she came back at 2 a.m DRUNK!!! like i had to take her to the bathroom to throw up, that's why i just didn't wanted to see her again, this episode made me feel sick to my stomach, sad, and dissapointed.
And I told Isabel that I believed what she was telling me, at least the one part of my mom drunk, 'cause I have seen her like that the only time of the year that I went to visit her... after that call, I didn't call Isabel again I was just emabarrased, and obviously I didn't wanted to know anything about my mother.. 2 months after that my mother left me a phone message saying that she wanted to talk to me and to call her.. I did call her, and i apologized for all the 4 months I didn't talk to her.. now things still fine ,but I still don't know if what Isabel told me was true or not, I know the awful part of this, is that i believed it!!!! my mom is crazy and she does act like she's 14 (no offense)
I feel like I betrayed her, first for telling Isabel that i saw my mom drunk, second for believing that thing, I never had a great relationship with my mom, she stop taking care of me (financially) at the age of 15, everything that i had was because of my uncle and my grandma, but that's another long story.
I pretty much needed to vent, i've been keeping this for a year, and it makes me sad when i think about it, and i'm still embarrased ...
