ashley8119
Well-known member
Okay, so this is gonna be a long one:
I recently got back in touch with this guy I've known since 1st grade. He moved in 7th, moved back last year, and we just got back in touch 2 months ago. We're both 18/19 now. So a lot of time has changed since we've last seen each other. We actually got back in touch on MySpace. We've been talking everyday for the past 2 months, rediscovering each other and it's been fun. He's been very open with me about his past, and I've been a bit more guarded but he understands and we've been taking our time. He confided in me that he is 7 months clean of a cocaine addiction, and he was very open about it. He answers any questions I have about anything, and he encourages the fact that we're very open and honest with each other. We reminisce about younger days, everything was great. I've been feeling a bit more for him lately, and we made it clear to each other a few times that we're interested in each other. Problem though: I moved to Philly, he's back in MI where we used to live before he went to Florida to live for 4 or 5 years or something.
He's involved in this piercing/tattoo/suspension/flesh pull business and they do parties every weekend, so we don't talk as often on weekends cuz he's the main piercer. So last Friday, we discussed where we were at right now. He said that he really likes me and that had I been there, he would have asked me out a long time ago. I kind of agreed with him [about liking him as well]. So he had to set up for the piercing party on Friday, then he texted me later that day. Then he kind of disappeared.
Then I asked him a few days later if he was okay, and he said that he's been having some phone trouble. We've corresponded only a few times within the past almost week. Which is VERY unusual for us, we talk every day several times a day. I've attempted to text him and ask him if something's wrong. I've asked him before, and everytime he says that if something was wrong or if something was on his mind concerning our platonic at the moment relationship, he would tell me. He's usually very honest about things, telling me things that I've asked about, but didn't really want to hear the severity of the details [ex. his drug past] but I accepted the truth, because I accepted him for who he is, and everything he is.
So his ex-best friend is back in his life, and she's female. This is trivial to more grown up people on here, but he moved her to #3 on MySpace, and I'm #8. I know most of the other people on his top friends, so I'm not threatened by anybody else on her. Except her. She lives in Florida where he used to live. They lost touch, but they're friends again. So now I'm worried that maybe he likes her or something, and maybe he's delibirately ignoring me hoping that I'll "go away". I don't think he would do that, because he's so open about everything. I think that if that was the case, he would tell me. But now I'm just afraid that I might lose him..
I know I probably sound like such an immature little girl right now, but I'm 18...and this is kind of a huge deal for me, because I've only been in one relationship and I was 15. And that ended badly, and a bit traumatic {the guy was 20} so I guarded myself very much for the past 3 years and pushed everybody else away because I was afraid of being hurt again. So this is the first time I've been willing to open up to somebody and let them in...
I've been crying a lot about it, because he's everything I've wanted and have been looking for. I've accepted everything about him, the good and the bad, and now I'm afraid that he won't see that.
What do the more experienced and mature members think? Do you think I'm overreacting about all of this? Or do you think that maybe he really is having phone trouble and I should just chill out?
I apologize for sounding dumb, I'm just so confused...and my head is full, so I kind of let it all spill right here...
I recently got back in touch with this guy I've known since 1st grade. He moved in 7th, moved back last year, and we just got back in touch 2 months ago. We're both 18/19 now. So a lot of time has changed since we've last seen each other. We actually got back in touch on MySpace. We've been talking everyday for the past 2 months, rediscovering each other and it's been fun. He's been very open with me about his past, and I've been a bit more guarded but he understands and we've been taking our time. He confided in me that he is 7 months clean of a cocaine addiction, and he was very open about it. He answers any questions I have about anything, and he encourages the fact that we're very open and honest with each other. We reminisce about younger days, everything was great. I've been feeling a bit more for him lately, and we made it clear to each other a few times that we're interested in each other. Problem though: I moved to Philly, he's back in MI where we used to live before he went to Florida to live for 4 or 5 years or something.
He's involved in this piercing/tattoo/suspension/flesh pull business and they do parties every weekend, so we don't talk as often on weekends cuz he's the main piercer. So last Friday, we discussed where we were at right now. He said that he really likes me and that had I been there, he would have asked me out a long time ago. I kind of agreed with him [about liking him as well]. So he had to set up for the piercing party on Friday, then he texted me later that day. Then he kind of disappeared.
Then I asked him a few days later if he was okay, and he said that he's been having some phone trouble. We've corresponded only a few times within the past almost week. Which is VERY unusual for us, we talk every day several times a day. I've attempted to text him and ask him if something's wrong. I've asked him before, and everytime he says that if something was wrong or if something was on his mind concerning our platonic at the moment relationship, he would tell me. He's usually very honest about things, telling me things that I've asked about, but didn't really want to hear the severity of the details [ex. his drug past] but I accepted the truth, because I accepted him for who he is, and everything he is.
So his ex-best friend is back in his life, and she's female. This is trivial to more grown up people on here, but he moved her to #3 on MySpace, and I'm #8. I know most of the other people on his top friends, so I'm not threatened by anybody else on her. Except her. She lives in Florida where he used to live. They lost touch, but they're friends again. So now I'm worried that maybe he likes her or something, and maybe he's delibirately ignoring me hoping that I'll "go away". I don't think he would do that, because he's so open about everything. I think that if that was the case, he would tell me. But now I'm just afraid that I might lose him..
I know I probably sound like such an immature little girl right now, but I'm 18...and this is kind of a huge deal for me, because I've only been in one relationship and I was 15. And that ended badly, and a bit traumatic {the guy was 20} so I guarded myself very much for the past 3 years and pushed everybody else away because I was afraid of being hurt again. So this is the first time I've been willing to open up to somebody and let them in...
I've been crying a lot about it, because he's everything I've wanted and have been looking for. I've accepted everything about him, the good and the bad, and now I'm afraid that he won't see that.
What do the more experienced and mature members think? Do you think I'm overreacting about all of this? Or do you think that maybe he really is having phone trouble and I should just chill out?
I apologize for sounding dumb, I'm just so confused...and my head is full, so I kind of let it all spill right here...