GirlyDork
Well-known member
My New Year's Resolution is to get over my ex.
I know that sounds strange coming from a freshman in high school, but damn! I have been through so much crap with this one guy in a short period of time.
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Timeline:
July 18: We met online on the night of my birthday through a mutual acquaintance. We basically only met because he and my acquaintance were against my new friend. This is somewhat relevant later because my ex, my friend at the time, my acquaintance, and I all go to the same school. (My acquaintance no longer goes to our school now.)
Some time in late July/early August: My ex and I start IMing regularly. He added me as a friend on Facebook. We start talking a little bit on the phone. I begin to like his personality, interests, and even appearance a LOT in about a week or so. "He's HOT, inside AND out," I think to myself. "I don't even care that I HAVEN'T MET HIM IN PERSON." Eventually I admit to him that I like him, despite having a boyfriend that I was trying again with for the second time. He says he likes me back, but he wants things to be okay with me and my boyfriend at the time.
August 5: My ex convinced me to break up with my boyfriend. From that moment on, we were not quite "together" yet, but he called me "baby" and "cutie" and even "sexy". I was looking forward to August 11, when school would start and I would meet my new crush (at the time).
August 11: I met my ex. When I got to school, we walked off campus into a nearby shopping center. He hugged me and gave me a peck on the lips. Then we went back to school. By lunch time, we had announced that we were officially "together".
From August 12 to September 11: Things happened very fast in our relationship. After a mere two weeks or so, we were sneaking off behind the movie theater next to our school to make out and do other things. It was mainly just him kissing me and touching me all over, in nearly every way possible. I didn't know how to respond, but naturally, I enjoyed it. It still felt like there was something missing, or that something wasn't right. Eventually I told him we were going to fast, and we agreed to slow down. We slowed down for about a week. Then we went on a date, and things were back to "normal". On our one month anniversary, he broke up with me over AIM because "he didn't like me like that anymore".
The next few weeks: I was miserable!!! Then my ex later told me that he liked me even when he broke up with me, but he thought I'd be upset if he said we were going to fast. I was still sad, but eventually things calmed down with a lot of therapy, and my ex and I became friends again. As soon as the drama ended, we got back together because we decided we still liked each other. He charmed and sweet talked me back into a relationship.
The next two weeks after that: Things went way slower. Everything was great! We went on a date again, too. That's also the day he broke up with me for the second time...OVER FREAKIN' AIM! His excuse this time was that there was no more connection or spark in the relationship. Oh, really...I felt plenty of spark, even WITHOUT you squeezing my boobs anymore!
The next day: Remember my "friend"? She was my ex's new GF the VERY NEXT DAY AFTER THE BREAKUP, a Monday, the beginning of a new school week. She told me I couldn't tell anyone they were together, because they were together before I even knew them, and things crashed and burned and ended badly. That was last school year. She said no one would approve. DAMN STRAIGHT!
Wednesday or Thursday that week: I told people about my ex-friend and ex-boyfriend getting back together. They both hated me because they looked bad in front of the whole school while I looked like I did nothing wrong. Muahahaha...wow...I really AM a bitch.
Later on: My ex-friend and ex-boyfriend broke up to end drama. My ex-boyfriend hated me and my ex-friend was just a plain on-and-off friend and enemy; a "frenemy" if you will.
Mid (?) November: I went on a somewhat-blind date with a guy. He told me he set my ex up with some girl and that they made out on the first date. Then they broke up shortly after. Being the loudmouthed retard that I am, I tell EVERYONE. Later I found out from more reliable sources that my ex WAS indeed set up with that girl, but they never even kissed. From that point on, my ex loathed me with the power of a million Aztec suns. He called me a bitch, stupid, and a slut. He also blamed me for his bad reputation (even though he still had his friends, and I barely had ANYONE at school!).
Random moments from the last point on: I continued to make an ass of myself, from talking about my ex and then realizing he's behind me to hysterically crying and screaming about how much I hate/love him. I also ended up cutting myself, which I have done before, but I promised I'd never do it again.
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PHEW!!! And that was the SIMPLIFIED story!
Please, please, please, please, PLEASE help me! Give me advice on getting over my ex and possibly having a friendship with him in the future. I want my New Year's Resolution to come true. I'm so tired of grieving and wishing things were the way they were from the beginning. I don't want to risk harming myself and making myself look worse. I still want my ex SOOO bad. I don't understand why!!! I NEED to get over it!!!
If you respond or even just read this, thank you for your time. I really appreciate it.
XOXO Peace & Love,
Sarah
I know that sounds strange coming from a freshman in high school, but damn! I have been through so much crap with this one guy in a short period of time.
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Timeline:
July 18: We met online on the night of my birthday through a mutual acquaintance. We basically only met because he and my acquaintance were against my new friend. This is somewhat relevant later because my ex, my friend at the time, my acquaintance, and I all go to the same school. (My acquaintance no longer goes to our school now.)
Some time in late July/early August: My ex and I start IMing regularly. He added me as a friend on Facebook. We start talking a little bit on the phone. I begin to like his personality, interests, and even appearance a LOT in about a week or so. "He's HOT, inside AND out," I think to myself. "I don't even care that I HAVEN'T MET HIM IN PERSON." Eventually I admit to him that I like him, despite having a boyfriend that I was trying again with for the second time. He says he likes me back, but he wants things to be okay with me and my boyfriend at the time.
August 5: My ex convinced me to break up with my boyfriend. From that moment on, we were not quite "together" yet, but he called me "baby" and "cutie" and even "sexy". I was looking forward to August 11, when school would start and I would meet my new crush (at the time).
August 11: I met my ex. When I got to school, we walked off campus into a nearby shopping center. He hugged me and gave me a peck on the lips. Then we went back to school. By lunch time, we had announced that we were officially "together".
From August 12 to September 11: Things happened very fast in our relationship. After a mere two weeks or so, we were sneaking off behind the movie theater next to our school to make out and do other things. It was mainly just him kissing me and touching me all over, in nearly every way possible. I didn't know how to respond, but naturally, I enjoyed it. It still felt like there was something missing, or that something wasn't right. Eventually I told him we were going to fast, and we agreed to slow down. We slowed down for about a week. Then we went on a date, and things were back to "normal". On our one month anniversary, he broke up with me over AIM because "he didn't like me like that anymore".
The next few weeks: I was miserable!!! Then my ex later told me that he liked me even when he broke up with me, but he thought I'd be upset if he said we were going to fast. I was still sad, but eventually things calmed down with a lot of therapy, and my ex and I became friends again. As soon as the drama ended, we got back together because we decided we still liked each other. He charmed and sweet talked me back into a relationship.
The next two weeks after that: Things went way slower. Everything was great! We went on a date again, too. That's also the day he broke up with me for the second time...OVER FREAKIN' AIM! His excuse this time was that there was no more connection or spark in the relationship. Oh, really...I felt plenty of spark, even WITHOUT you squeezing my boobs anymore!
The next day: Remember my "friend"? She was my ex's new GF the VERY NEXT DAY AFTER THE BREAKUP, a Monday, the beginning of a new school week. She told me I couldn't tell anyone they were together, because they were together before I even knew them, and things crashed and burned and ended badly. That was last school year. She said no one would approve. DAMN STRAIGHT!
Wednesday or Thursday that week: I told people about my ex-friend and ex-boyfriend getting back together. They both hated me because they looked bad in front of the whole school while I looked like I did nothing wrong. Muahahaha...wow...I really AM a bitch.
Later on: My ex-friend and ex-boyfriend broke up to end drama. My ex-boyfriend hated me and my ex-friend was just a plain on-and-off friend and enemy; a "frenemy" if you will.
Mid (?) November: I went on a somewhat-blind date with a guy. He told me he set my ex up with some girl and that they made out on the first date. Then they broke up shortly after. Being the loudmouthed retard that I am, I tell EVERYONE. Later I found out from more reliable sources that my ex WAS indeed set up with that girl, but they never even kissed. From that point on, my ex loathed me with the power of a million Aztec suns. He called me a bitch, stupid, and a slut. He also blamed me for his bad reputation (even though he still had his friends, and I barely had ANYONE at school!).
Random moments from the last point on: I continued to make an ass of myself, from talking about my ex and then realizing he's behind me to hysterically crying and screaming about how much I hate/love him. I also ended up cutting myself, which I have done before, but I promised I'd never do it again.
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PHEW!!! And that was the SIMPLIFIED story!
Please, please, please, please, PLEASE help me! Give me advice on getting over my ex and possibly having a friendship with him in the future. I want my New Year's Resolution to come true. I'm so tired of grieving and wishing things were the way they were from the beginning. I don't want to risk harming myself and making myself look worse. I still want my ex SOOO bad. I don't understand why!!! I NEED to get over it!!!
If you respond or even just read this, thank you for your time. I really appreciate it.
XOXO Peace & Love,
Sarah
