crystalic_oxyge
Well-known member
hey everyone!
im really desperate at the moment, thinking and thinking. just finished school a month ago now, and actually ive made my plans studying in vienna in the economic university. i actually already got the registration done and everything.
but then again... since a time now im dreaming of studying in moscow. its not exactly my home town, but for me its my home-country.... although im originally from kirgizstan (which was still soviet union when i was born). anyhow... everything seems so hard. courses beginn in august there (in austria only in october) and plus im just thinking about it... but my dream is just growing bigger and bigger and its hurting more and more how much i really want to do it!!! but im even scared of asking my mom cause she will think im crazy or something...
(i think)
apart from the fact that i think its WAAAAY to late to apply (i need tons of documents, certifications of an HIV-negative test which must be taken there, visa, a russian-test (whatever i have to do))... plus im gone for the whole august to the US.
what do you think? does anyone have any experience? ive turned 18 this year and now going away for "ever" from home, family, friends? you think i could cope? i really need your thoughts. its tearing me apart cause i think its waaaay to late, plus the idea of deciding NOW to leave in 2 month to study to another country sounds horribly UNREALISTIC, + no idea if it would be financially even possible....
but its my dream (since a few weeks)! and i want to fulfill my dreams cause now my future beginns!!!! what if its just a phase!? i really need your comments! its tearing me apart, and i cant really speak to anyone cause im even scared of my mothers reaction..... anyone done such a brave thing? anyone know anyone?? plllleeeeeeeease help
sorry for the long post.. thx in advance for every single read and comment!! <3
im really desperate at the moment, thinking and thinking. just finished school a month ago now, and actually ive made my plans studying in vienna in the economic university. i actually already got the registration done and everything.
but then again... since a time now im dreaming of studying in moscow. its not exactly my home town, but for me its my home-country.... although im originally from kirgizstan (which was still soviet union when i was born). anyhow... everything seems so hard. courses beginn in august there (in austria only in october) and plus im just thinking about it... but my dream is just growing bigger and bigger and its hurting more and more how much i really want to do it!!! but im even scared of asking my mom cause she will think im crazy or something...
apart from the fact that i think its WAAAAY to late to apply (i need tons of documents, certifications of an HIV-negative test which must be taken there, visa, a russian-test (whatever i have to do))... plus im gone for the whole august to the US.
what do you think? does anyone have any experience? ive turned 18 this year and now going away for "ever" from home, family, friends? you think i could cope? i really need your thoughts. its tearing me apart cause i think its waaaay to late, plus the idea of deciding NOW to leave in 2 month to study to another country sounds horribly UNREALISTIC, + no idea if it would be financially even possible....
but its my dream (since a few weeks)! and i want to fulfill my dreams cause now my future beginns!!!! what if its just a phase!? i really need your comments! its tearing me apart, and i cant really speak to anyone cause im even scared of my mothers reaction..... anyone done such a brave thing? anyone know anyone?? plllleeeeeeeease help
sorry for the long post.. thx in advance for every single read and comment!! <3