Melrose
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Thanks Dolly, NaomiH and Mel. Your words and messages are truly appreciated.
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NaomiH
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I'm glad you're going to get to see her again soon and spend some time with her.
NaomiH
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:kiss:
walkingdead
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Mel! Was wondering about you too! How are you?
mel33t
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Just busy at work
I also recently switched phone plans and unless I'm using WiFi my data gets used up in about three days. I'm going to T-Mobile later this week to see what's going on with that. I really only use the internet (here) and Google Maps. I hope everyone has better weeks and lots of love being sent everyone's way :hug:
CrimsonQuill157
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I'm so sorry to everyone who's having problems. This seems to be a really rough time of year.
I don't know where else to post this. I don't know where to turn. But I've been having suicidal thoughts. I've been having them since I was 11 but they're really bad right now. I was driving the other day and it was all I could do not to veer off the road and drive into something. I'm having a horrible day today and it's like one second I'm okay and the next I just want to end it. I don't know what to do. I went to the heath clinic on campus and they weren't that helpful. And I don't want to go to the hospital because they hold you for 72 hours with no contact from anyone.
I don't know where else to post this. I don't know where to turn. But I've been having suicidal thoughts. I've been having them since I was 11 but they're really bad right now. I was driving the other day and it was all I could do not to veer off the road and drive into something. I'm having a horrible day today and it's like one second I'm okay and the next I just want to end it. I don't know what to do. I went to the heath clinic on campus and they weren't that helpful. And I don't want to go to the hospital because they hold you for 72 hours with no contact from anyone.
mel33t
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1) Thank you for positng that here. It's incredibly brave of you to say this.
2) I'm glad you were strong and went to the campus people, even though they're not helpful. I've been there. I don't think the hospital is a good idea. I think that you need physical comfort (like a hug or just someone to physically talk to). Is there anyone at your school/dorm/home that you could just spend the night with tonight?
Lots of love for you sweetie.
CrimsonQuill157
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I'm here with my roommate and she knows. But today I've lost contact with someone who was a major support system for me and who I cared for deeply... And it's so hard1) Thank you for positng that here. It's incredibly brave of you to say this.
2) I'm glad you were strong and went to the campus people, even though they're not helpful. I've been there. I don't think the hospital is a good idea. I think that you need physical comfort (like a hug or just someone to physically talk to). Is there anyone at your school/dorm/home that you could just spend the night with tonight?
Lots of love for you sweetie.
mel33t
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That is hard. I'm so sorry for your loss Crimson.
I'm glad you're with your roommate though who can help you through, and you know we're here for you too
Melrose
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Is there anyone close by that you can go see or talk to tonight? I know you don't want to go to the hospital and I understand. I just feel you really need to be with someone right now. Hang in there, praying for you and sending lots of hugs. You are not alone.
charismafulltv
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I love it that Specktra is not only all about beauty talk it's a very positive and supportive community
Dolly Snow
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Crimson, I am sorry you are going through such a difficult time, and have been. You are so brave to admit this to us. That shows you know these thoughts are not good for you. I'm very proud of you, truly. There is really nothing one can say to help you change your thoughts, as I know someone who has tried to kill themselves. The change must come from within. This road is long. Fortunately, you are loved and a wonderful person. I am so glad you went to your campus looking for help. I am so sorry they could not help you. Though a hospital seems scary, it may be the best option for you. Have you brought this up with your doctor? A therapist can help, your doctor could recommend one to you. You are not alone! Please remember that. Suicide is never the answer! I am here for you, we all are.
I know these are just words, but honestly you are an amazing person! Kind, beautiful inside and out! The first step to helping yourself, is admitting it. And you did just that! You are so brave my dear.
CrimsonQuill157
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Honestly if it wasn't for the whole no contact thing I would strongly consider going. But I think not being able to be in contact with family and friends for three days would just break me.That is hard. I'm so sorry for your loss Crimson.
I'm glad you're with your roommate though who can help you through, and you know we're here for you too
Thank you.
I'm with my roommate. I think my biggest issue tonight is that the one person I want to talk to the most, I can't...
Quote: Originally Posted by Dolly Snow
Crimson, I am sorry you are going through such a difficult time, and have been.
You are so brave to admit this to us.
That shows you know these thoughts are not good for you. I'm very proud of you, truly.
There is really nothing one can say to help you change your thoughts, as I know someone who has tried to kill themselves. The change must come from within. This road is long. Fortunately, you are loved and a wonderful person.
I am so glad you went to your campus looking for help. I am so sorry they could not help you. Though a hospital seems scary, it may be the best option for you. Have you brought this up with your doctor? A therapist can help, your doctor could recommend one to you.
You are not alone! Please remember that. Suicide is never the answer!
I am here for you, we all are.
I know these are just words, but honestly you are an amazing person! Kind, beautiful inside and out!
The first step to helping yourself, is admitting it. And you did just that! You are so brave my dear.
Dolly Snow
Moderator
I know, I do understand. I do hope you find the help you need. My heart goes out to you
charismafulltv
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I know what u feel crimson. I've had severe acute depression last year due to bullying by my previous manager. I also did have suicidal thoughts and my husband rushed me to the ER and they moved me to a state mental facility for a minimum of 72 hours. The psychiatrist made an assessment that night and kept me for just 24 hrs. He referred me to a social worker for someone to talk to and a nurse practitioner who's I've been seeing since gave me antidepressants and anti anxiety. Depression is a medical problem not a psychological one. It's the chemicals in your brain that got imbalanced due to either a chronic or an acute stressor. I was ashamed before to admit that I was depressed, but now I embraced it that everyone goes thru this phase in their lifetime but not everyone acknowledges it. I'm so proud that you acknowledged it bec it's never easy. Talk to a social worker in your school or a guidance counselor.
charismafulltv
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The 3 days with no contact is though but they do have activities that u do every hour. It's like they have like reflection talks, movies and crafts. It's also a humbling experience bec u learn issues from other patients and u will realize that hey I'm not the only one in this world who experienced the worst. You'll have a different perspective of life as soon as you get out. It's not necessarily 72 hours they can send u home after 24 hrs if after assessment the doctor feels u are no longer a threat to yourself.
charismafulltv
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I meant tough not though
CrimsonQuill157
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Thanks for this. I want to be a social worker so I hope to be on the other side of this one day. That actually sounds really good... I just don't know if I'm ready
charismafulltv
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The sooner you deal with it the sooner you'll recover it ain't that bad. It's not like the season 2 of American horror story
