ashley8119
Well-known member
Okay, so I've been talking about this guy for awhile. We've known eachother since 1st grade, got back in touch six months ago (after being apart for 8 years). We spent time getting to know eachother. Materialistically, he didn't have much to offer. No job, no diploma, no car. He also is a recovering coke addict. I looked past all of that, because I wanted to see <i>him</i> for who he really is, and not for what he has/or doesn't have, and what he has done in the past.
Things were great between us. He hasn't called me in four days. He told me he was going to do some work to get money for my birthday, so he could take me out. That was four days ago. He hasn't called me since. And today is my birthday, and he never called. Not even to say 'happy birthday'. It's so unlike him. I could expect this from anybody, but never from him.
I don't know what to do. I can't believe he would do this. Lately, he's been dealing with depression and he told me he was craving drugs lately. So now I don't know what's going to happen. He would constantly say that I could get better, but he knows that he could never find better than me. To be honest, I agree 100%.
When it finally is convenient for him to call, I don't know what to do. A million things are running through my mind. Did he go back to drugs? Did he find another girl? He has always been so honest with me, and never shady. I'm very suspicious of people, but I've never had a reason to be. He has always told me things up front, and never hid them. He has even told me some truths that I would rather not hear, but he always told me whatever I asked about and he would even offer up some important information about his past. I just don't understand. I've been single and jaded for the past 3 years. I finally decided to open up again, and try...and now this. I never would have seen this coming.
I'm just so sad. I've spent my 19th birthday crying on and off all day, and listening to Celine Dion.
Things were great between us. He hasn't called me in four days. He told me he was going to do some work to get money for my birthday, so he could take me out. That was four days ago. He hasn't called me since. And today is my birthday, and he never called. Not even to say 'happy birthday'. It's so unlike him. I could expect this from anybody, but never from him.
I don't know what to do. I can't believe he would do this. Lately, he's been dealing with depression and he told me he was craving drugs lately. So now I don't know what's going to happen. He would constantly say that I could get better, but he knows that he could never find better than me. To be honest, I agree 100%.
When it finally is convenient for him to call, I don't know what to do. A million things are running through my mind. Did he go back to drugs? Did he find another girl? He has always been so honest with me, and never shady. I'm very suspicious of people, but I've never had a reason to be. He has always told me things up front, and never hid them. He has even told me some truths that I would rather not hear, but he always told me whatever I asked about and he would even offer up some important information about his past. I just don't understand. I've been single and jaded for the past 3 years. I finally decided to open up again, and try...and now this. I never would have seen this coming.
I'm just so sad. I've spent my 19th birthday crying on and off all day, and listening to Celine Dion.
