My heart goes out to you. Just know that you put your sweet baby's needs before your own and be comforted in knowing that you gave her a wonderful, loving home for many, many years. In return, she gave you lots of love and affection and unconditional companionship. It's hard, I know, but you did the right thing. It's natural to grieve and to miss her and even to cry -- a lot. But you gave her your very best, and she couldn't have had a better friend.