Lord. Please be careful.
I had a girl in court today who had a .31 BAC and had driven in her car. She killed 3 people when she hit them at 95 mph and she didn't remember ANY OF IT. She found out she had killed the people for the first time at her arraignment after they set her bail at $500,000. She burst into tears when I told her and claims she doesn't remember anything after the 7 shots, 4 beers and a bottle of Mikes that she drank BEFORE they went out for the night. She had no idea she was in an accident, no idea she'd even been in her car. She's 19. It broke my heart.
Yesterday, I sat in on an interview with a young woman who was allegedly gang-raped by a group of male friends at a friend of a friend's party. She doesn't really remember what happened though because she had had so much to drink. She doesn't remember saying no but she doesn't think she would have said yes. She's 16.
Please please please be careful in the future. I know you say you're never drinking again, but you will. Everyone thinks these types of stories can never happen to them, but they can and they do. Every single day. You are too young and have too much going for you. You are clearly intelligent in that you have taken this experience and learned from it but in time lessons fade for all of us. Good luck and please treat yourself well.