user46
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So. As you guys know, my boyfriend and I had like this huge fight 2 weeks ago. And we were like perfectly fine. Up until about yesterday.
We had a little argument. I don't even know what it started out over. Basically, he's mad at me that I don't trust him. and it's not so much that I don't trust him, but i'm just insecure and i don't know how to deal with my emotions. I've always been this girl with an attitude for as long as I can remember. I mean ... idk. I just have an attitude sometimes, lol. And sometimes I just take it out on him and i make insecure comments and i just say things that are uncalled for. And seeing as we had this big fight 2 weeks ago, I need to just tone it down. But i can't help but think ... what if he leaves me tomorrow. What if it doesn't work.
I have this fairytale version of how a man should show a woman he cares, and I know it's far from the truth. This being my first real relationship, I don't know how to deal with it. You would think after 2 years I would know what a REAL relationship entails. But I still don't. I still don't know how to be the woman in the relationship, and I know he doesn't know how to be the man. It feels like we're just chugging along and taking it how it comes. I also feel like sometimes I try too hard. I tell him I love him all the time, I tell him how happy I am to be with him ... all the things i'd be so happy about if he said it to me. But it's like ... he just says "i love you too" back. I think I want too much..but sometimes it's nice to hear a little something more. I just don't even know what the point of this thread is. I just can't feel normal anymore about this. I feel like i'm messing everything up ...
Being a romantic ... sucks.
We had a little argument. I don't even know what it started out over. Basically, he's mad at me that I don't trust him. and it's not so much that I don't trust him, but i'm just insecure and i don't know how to deal with my emotions. I've always been this girl with an attitude for as long as I can remember. I mean ... idk. I just have an attitude sometimes, lol. And sometimes I just take it out on him and i make insecure comments and i just say things that are uncalled for. And seeing as we had this big fight 2 weeks ago, I need to just tone it down. But i can't help but think ... what if he leaves me tomorrow. What if it doesn't work.
I have this fairytale version of how a man should show a woman he cares, and I know it's far from the truth. This being my first real relationship, I don't know how to deal with it. You would think after 2 years I would know what a REAL relationship entails. But I still don't. I still don't know how to be the woman in the relationship, and I know he doesn't know how to be the man. It feels like we're just chugging along and taking it how it comes. I also feel like sometimes I try too hard. I tell him I love him all the time, I tell him how happy I am to be with him ... all the things i'd be so happy about if he said it to me. But it's like ... he just says "i love you too" back. I think I want too much..but sometimes it's nice to hear a little something more. I just don't even know what the point of this thread is. I just can't feel normal anymore about this. I feel like i'm messing everything up ...
Being a romantic ... sucks.