Suicidal

[V15U4L_3RR0R]

I've been through this a couple of times. I've had two psychiatric assesments because I tried it. I've had to cope with depression for a couple of years now and there are days when I think about it or I feel so numb and empty. There have been days where I was so numb, I thought I would never be able to think or feel again so I cut myself because feeling physical pain was a hell of a lot better than nothing and knowing that I was still alive.

But my personal opinion on suicide? I'm pro choice in all honesty. If someone is going through intolerable pain either physically or mentally and they feel that it's the only way out for them then go ahead. Just like anything else in the verse, it's down to personal choice. I don't see it as weak or cowardly or selfish. I nearly lost my bro to suicide so I know how it feels from that side of things. I've had to stop friends from doing it and I knew someone who did it and succeeded. And if there's one thing I've learned is that if someone is really going to do it, no one is going to stop them and most likely you won't realize they're going to do it until they do. Some will attempt it as an extreme way to get the help they need. But I guess we all chose to do it for different reasons.

This however does not mean that I think people shouldn't be given help for whatever it is that's making them want to go through with it. People need to be made aware of all the choices they have in front of them but more often than not, they aren't.

The only other thing I really have to say is "Get busy living or get busy dying".

 

[girlsaidwhat]

The simple truth is that suicide is /always/ an option. People don't like to talk about it like that...but I think dealing with the truth at the heart of things is best.

Since it's always an option...why not try to figure out what you need to be happy while you're here? I mean, life is hard, but there is so much good and beauty to be had. What do you need to change in your life in order to create a happier life all around you? You're in the driver's seat now. If you don't like what you have... choose something else.

Focus on what you're learning from the things that have happened to you, instead of on the pain that was caused in the past. Don't be a victim over and over again to whatever it was that happened...because it's easy for your brain to make that happen.

You might not have chosen whatever it was that happened to you...but you are the driver /now/ and now is where your power is. You can't make choices in the past, only in the now.

In the last month, two suicides have occurred in my close circle (not my friends, but people they knew). Both were young girls, between 19 and 22. Both were lovely beyond measure, seemingly inside and out. It's tragic that they aren't here to continue discovering their potentials. It would be tragic if YOU weren't here to continue discovering your own, too.

The bad things that happen to us give us opportunities to grow. You must have a lot of potential for growth, to be presented with something so heavy to deal with. You can do it, but make sure you have plenty of support from people who are able to nurture you and love you as you are.

 

[Kiseki]

Many years ago I considered it, I had never thought about it before and one day it seemed so easy, it would end things and I wouldn't have to put up with what was happening around me anymore.

One day I was going to do it and I stopped, something inside me (thankfully a wiser version of myself) told me me to wait in the weirdest conversation I had with myself, things would turn out better, life would turn out better, I had a lot to look forward to. And I decided to wait. It wasn't easy and I never told anyone and I kept on living, a year and half later my life changed dramatically (for the better) and I thank myself to this day that I didn't commit suicide.

I understand the desperation that makes us consider it, but ultimately it doesn't solve anything.

 

[karen diggins]

I know how you feel. I was really down and out and took a hole bunch of pills. I woke up in the hospital. My ex boyfriend came home and found me on the floor not breathing and turning blue. He was smart enough to call 911 and so I am here today. That was 6 years ago and I had hit my bottom. I found a great Dr which has made my life alot better. I still have down days but I remember to take it one day at a time... Keep your head up things will get better in time.