ashley8119
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So it happened. I knew it would. Things have been way too weird lately, he suddenly was always breaking plans, "forgetting" to call, disappearing from his house for 3 or 4 days at a time.
He was clean off of cocaine, crack and heroin for 11 months. We were together for six months, and it was the happiest I had ever been. We made plans for the near future, made sacrifices for each other, but it's just not enough. He blew me off on my birthday. He also disappeared from his house for 4 days, leaving his mom frantic and calling everybody asking where he was. Then he conveniently shows up. A mutual friend of ours said that she's almost positive he fell back into 'old habits'.
I knew this was going to happen, so I'm not too surprised. I was just so happy with him. We brought out the best in each other. Apparently, he cares more about drugs than me. People keep telling me that I'm young, 19, so that I will meet somebody better eventually. I doubt it, though. Materialistically, yes, I could definitely find better. I doubt I will find somebody with a better personality though. He was so nice, so genuine, and now that he's back into the drugs...he's a stranger to me. I don't even know him anymore. He didn't even bother to call me and explain his disappearance. I had to find out from somebody else. Who knows if he will face me now? He knew how devastated I would be if he went back to drugs, so maybe he's staying away and he thinks he's doing me a favor.
I don't know, I just stayed sheltered for 3 years and finally tried again, taking a chance on him...and now this. My heart is beyond broken. This is the first and only time my heart has ever been broken.
He was clean off of cocaine, crack and heroin for 11 months. We were together for six months, and it was the happiest I had ever been. We made plans for the near future, made sacrifices for each other, but it's just not enough. He blew me off on my birthday. He also disappeared from his house for 4 days, leaving his mom frantic and calling everybody asking where he was. Then he conveniently shows up. A mutual friend of ours said that she's almost positive he fell back into 'old habits'.
I knew this was going to happen, so I'm not too surprised. I was just so happy with him. We brought out the best in each other. Apparently, he cares more about drugs than me. People keep telling me that I'm young, 19, so that I will meet somebody better eventually. I doubt it, though. Materialistically, yes, I could definitely find better. I doubt I will find somebody with a better personality though. He was so nice, so genuine, and now that he's back into the drugs...he's a stranger to me. I don't even know him anymore. He didn't even bother to call me and explain his disappearance. I had to find out from somebody else. Who knows if he will face me now? He knew how devastated I would be if he went back to drugs, so maybe he's staying away and he thinks he's doing me a favor.
I don't know, I just stayed sheltered for 3 years and finally tried again, taking a chance on him...and now this. My heart is beyond broken. This is the first and only time my heart has ever been broken.
