I've been meaning to do this for a while...let's see if I can come up with 20...
1. I went to Catholic school for 9 years. They were the most miserable 9 years of my life.
2. That school, and the people in it, made me question my faith, and no longer want to be Catholic...
3. I was hospitalized for 3 months in the middle of my Freshman year of HS...I had a mental breakdown and tried to commit suicide.
4. I credit that experience for making me smarter and more self-aware. Despite the fact that it was a terrible situation, I believe it bettered me as a person.
5. My father never came to visit me while I was in the hospital...he was too busy drinking...and I still kind of hate him for it.
6. My father had a heart attack about 4 years ago...he's got a defibrillator now, and the doctor has told him to stop drinking, but he won't. He even gets drunk when I come visit him...it makes me want to cry.
7. My mom is my best friend.
8. I've been a little aggravated with my mom and the way she handles money lately...I love her, but I want to strangle her. I'm afraid she's going to eff up my credit.
9. I just bought a house in NJ, at the urging of my mom, because she needed to get out of the situation with my little brother's dad (he's a jerk)...but I don't know how she's going to handle the mortgage and all the other bills.
10. I give my mom as much $ as I can every month, to help out, but I have my own bills, rent, AND I have to take care of my 6 month old son...
11. I feel guilty when I don't give my mom as much money as I really could...but sometimes I really just want to do something for me. Maybe I'm selfish...
12. I feel guilty when I look at my son, sometimes...because he doesn't have a father, and I know it's not my fault, but he deserves so much better.
13. I wonder, sometimes, what my life would be like right now, if I didn't have my son, but I love him more than anything else in life, and I think I would hate my life without him...I often feel like he's my only happiness.
14. I have bipolar disorder, which is well controlled on my medication combo, but lately I've been in a depression, and I'm finding it hard to pull myself out.
15. I took my son to get his portrait done this weekend...I blew $300 that I really shouldn't have, but he's just SO damn cute...I couldn't resist. I got the pictures back, and in some of them, he looks just like my Pop-Pop (grandfather), who I adored...but in others he looks like his sperm donor...and it makes me sad...I pray every day that he looks more like me and my family than that scumbag piece of sh*t. Sorry for that one.
16. These facts suck. How about a happy one? I've got 28 tattoos.
17. I used to work in a tattoo shop as a piercer.
18. I've been in a few different tattoo magazines, and Savage did a profile on me earlier this year (w00t! I'm famous! LOL)
19. The tattoo I got done is disgustingly cute...it's a teddy bear with a big red bow around his neck, and my son's name in blocks underneath.
20. Each individual tattoo may not have a specific meaning, but they all have memories and times attached to them. It's like a little scrap book of my life from 18 until now.
Sorry for all those sad ones, guys...but once I get going in one direction, it's hard to stop. LOL