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Originally Posted by maianne
I *love* how you don't give a shit about posting a pic of yourself sans makeup!! To me, that confidence & attitude is what really makes a person beautiful.
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ha! Thanks hun
It's funny because 4 years ago, I would have NEVER ever in a million years even left the house without makeup on let alone post pictures online or whatever. I've always been extremely insecure growing up being called casper/powder and then being teased about having no eyebrows (I do, but they're so light) and then once I started wearing makeup on the brows, I was teased for "using crayons to draw my face on". Kids are so mean. But whatever. It wasn't until awhile after I got sick that I became completely comfortable with who I am. Love it or leave it - basically. I really do feel like the cancer/chemo destroyed not only my literal insides, but my exterior along with any self esteem I may have had. Everything I knew was torn away from me. Losing most of my hair, being too skinny and having face sores made me want to hide from the world. My muscles had atrophied so I walked like an old man for like 3 weeks and the looks I got then were priceless. It made me re-evaluate the way I see others as well. I think we're all guilty of judging people from time to time. Even if we don't say something to them, the thought "Why is she wearing that? . . . Damn she/he has a big forehead . . . etc" I went through a period were I got really defensive and felt like crying everyday because I felt sooo ugly and the looks I got from people only confirmed that (in my head at least) But the thing is, none of us know what anyone else has been through. Why we look the way we do and even then, why does it matter? My eventual conclusion was that it doesn't matter. And it's funny because I work in what can be perceived as such a superficial field. And to a degree cosmetics is superficial. But it's also an art form and when I was sick, feeling ugly, it was the only thing that made me feel better. My senior artist put it best "Makeup has the ability to straighten ones emotional posture." Which no one can argue with. It's true. Also, working at MAC, surprisingly has made me more comfortable with my naked face. I think because we all look at magazines, billboards, even other girls on the street and think, damn! She has flawless skin or whatever and be like I wish I looked like that. Although we all know 99.9% of prints are airbrushed on top of the fact that the model is wearing makeup, even if she looks like she's not, for me at least, that never really stuck. So seeing countless numbers of people without an ounce of anything on their face, (before I put it on), and being bare faced with all my coworkers at update numerous times only helped me to realize that no one is "perfect". Everyone has their flaws - or at least what some may perceive to be flaws. And those are "flaws" are where the true beauty lies. It's what makes us interesting and different from everyone else.