"Bare Fetish" Tweaked to my liking . . .

SonRisa

SonRisa

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Originally Posted by Nycutie182
Risa, its funny how well known you are by people you don't know on many forums for your talent. I admire not only your talent and skill, but after reading your last post, you as a person. You seem like a very strong, confident, helpful and considerate person. My mom went through chemo and it was such a trying time. I think you are both gorgeous both inside and out. (and your PJ's in the pic after the hospital are really cute
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I'm well known? Maybe here and LJ I guess, but that's just funny to me. I've been online for god, ummm . . . 10 years now? Yea. And I suppose I've always been involved in some sort of "community" because I like meeting people but the friends I've made online and I always used to laugh at "internet celebrities". I don't know. It's just random that you said that. Thank you though. My personality has definitely changed over the years as I got older but I guess I've always tried to be a good person in general. The whole leukemia thing really did change me though. I remember 4 months after my last dose of chemo I was staying with a friend in NY and we woke up and just left the house to go eat. Like literally, got out of bed (I don't even think we brushed our teeth - eww! lol) and jumped on the train. And I remember thinking "WTF am I doing?!? I have no makeup on! OMG, everyone's gonna see how ugly I am" So even at that point, I wasn't completely comfortable with myself, but just the fact that it was an after thought and not before we left the house "Wait! I need to at least put foundation and eyeliner on . . ." I realized I was changing. Slowly, but it was happening. Now, I really just don't give a fuck. (Excuse the language) But I don't! Life is too short to live based around what other people think of you . . . especially on a superficial level. I live for myself, and no one else. Okay enough of the sermon lol I've reached the point where I'm rambling.
 
FacesbyNiki

FacesbyNiki

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@ Risa, wow. When my sister was going through chemo her whole look on life had changed also. She was so focused on her career that she lost sight of other things. The cancer made her love herself more and love the ones around her more than she ever could. It also made her see that not everyone or everything has to be perfect.

You are a beautiful person inside and out. Thanks for sharing your story along with your techniques with us.

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MACgirl

MACgirl

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risa you look like a goddess without or with makeup, i respect the person that you are so much! I went through depression twice becuase of my looks, i dont feel pretty, everyone tells me iam but i always get uncomfterable, like ithink thier jsut saying that. Like you , i took to makeup becuase it was my escape, it was a talent that i had, it was mine, i would never achieve perfection but i could always create what i wanted at the moment. I still dont feel like im pretty or anything, but iam more confident, bare faced and all. everytime i see youre fotds, i know keep thinkin pretty soon mac will hire me just keep at it!! your an inspiration to me....thank you
 
aerials

aerials

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How amazing are you, Risa?

It's just so inspiring to know that you have such a powerful story that changed your life and changed your outcome ON life. And how fitting is it now that you're working at MAC helping people feel great about themselves. I'm just so in awe of you and everything you've been through....
 
prppygrl69

prppygrl69

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Originally Posted by SonRisa
Thanks hun! I actually posted pictures for that challenege with this look lol






They actually match my hair if you were to see me in person. For some reason my camera only ever picks up my hair color in either sunlight or on random occasions like this:

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wow i was just looking at this picture.jenna....jenna jameson? is that you?! lol my gosh you look like her now that she has the darker hair.....your gorgeous woman!!!
 
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M

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Frankly, I think you are stunning w/o makeup. Even more so, since you were in the hospital for 4 days. You still look strong
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d_flawless

d_flawless

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Originally Posted by SonRisa
ha! Thanks hun
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It's funny because 4 years ago, I would have NEVER ever in a million years even left the house without makeup on let alone post pictures online or whatever. I've always been extremely insecure growing up being called casper/powder and then being teased about having no eyebrows (I do, but they're so light) and then once I started wearing makeup on the brows, I was teased for "using crayons to draw my face on". Kids are so mean. But whatever. It wasn't until awhile after I got sick that I became completely comfortable with who I am. Love it or leave it - basically. I really do feel like the cancer/chemo destroyed not only my literal insides, but my exterior along with any self esteem I may have had. Everything I knew was torn away from me. Losing most of my hair, being too skinny and having face sores made me want to hide from the world. My muscles had atrophied so I walked like an old man for like 3 weeks and the looks I got then were priceless. It made me re-evaluate the way I see others as well. I think we're all guilty of judging people from time to time. Even if we don't say something to them, the thought "Why is she wearing that? . . . Damn she/he has a big forehead . . . etc" I went through a period were I got really defensive and felt like crying everyday because I felt sooo ugly and the looks I got from people only confirmed that (in my head at least) But the thing is, none of us know what anyone else has been through. Why we look the way we do and even then, why does it matter? My eventual conclusion was that it doesn't matter. And it's funny because I work in what can be perceived as such a superficial field. And to a degree cosmetics is superficial. But it's also an art form and when I was sick, feeling ugly, it was the only thing that made me feel better. My senior artist put it best "Makeup has the ability to straighten ones emotional posture." Which no one can argue with. It's true. Also, working at MAC, surprisingly has made me more comfortable with my naked face. I think because we all look at magazines, billboards, even other girls on the street and think, damn! She has flawless skin or whatever and be like I wish I looked like that. Although we all know 99.9% of prints are airbrushed on top of the fact that the model is wearing makeup, even if she looks like she's not, for me at least, that never really stuck. So seeing countless numbers of people without an ounce of anything on their face, (before I put it on), and being bare faced with all my coworkers at update numerous times only helped me to realize that no one is "perfect". Everyone has their flaws - or at least what some may perceive to be flaws. And those are "flaws" are where the true beauty lies. It's what makes us interesting and different from everyone else.


that's really beautiful. and as someone else said before, self-confidence is more attractive than any amount of make up, as long as you can pull it off. with everything you've been through, you're really an inspiration.
 
star1692

star1692

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I wish I could visit you and like spend about a week following you around and learning all ur skills! haha you are soo beautiful girl i wish i had half that beauty
 
Pootle_around

Pootle_around

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Risa I always find myself in awe of you. you are one of the most inspirational, yet modest girls on Specktra. I always look out for your FOTD and every time I log in I pray that you've done a tutorial for us.
You are beautiful and a fantastic role model. More young women should be like you.
 
curlyqmishee

curlyqmishee

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Beautiful as always Risa - You look absolutely adorable without makeup - you have naturally beautiful features which we're not all blessed with! You are so talented and inspirational; truly a beautiful woman, inside and out.
 
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