Thanks for the support ladies. It's nice to know I can come somewhere and rant about my problems and people actually listen (or read in this case) and care.
Lou - My Mom does get sick pay but unfortunately all that covers is our rent. That's it, we pretty much have nothing left over afterwards. I really hope this loan comes through.
As for my best friend, heh. We went out on Saturday night and she said some guy that she's "known for years" and has been a "do we don't we" kinda situation was coming out etc. Yet she has never in a couple of years knowing her ever mentioned this guy. So he can't be all that great. I'd be more inclined to have believed her - if she didn't say the same thing about every single guy she ever mentions. So that was fine - I didn't mind him joining us. He brought along his friend who was absolutely frigging trashed out of his face and kept making an idiot/spectacle of himself. Now, maybe some people find that stuff amusing - but personally I don't. I find it ridiculous. Anyway so throughout the whole night she was sitting with this guy she's known and talking to him and laughing at his idiotic friend while I had to sit there completely ignored. Which shse *always* does when there's a "potential" guy around - or as she calls them, "victims".
Anyway so during this time, I'm fed up of sitting there, staring at my phone waiting for ANYONE to text me to give me something to do and I think she noticed and said, "don't worry, they're leaving soon." So I think okay, while I'm being ignored and waiting for them to leave, I'll go have a cigarette. Might as well be ignored having one rather than sitting inside looking around like a lost puppy. Of course, I chose the worst place to sit. All of a sudden some guy jumped up on the table, which made it shake and several drinks fell off the table and all over me. Then him and rougly 9 other guys decide to be pissed off with one another and start fighting, naturally I'm in the way so I got a really hard punch to the back and decided forget it, I'm going back inside.
I got back to the table and my chair is all of a sudden taken up and there are 2 other people around as well. No where for me to sit - so I stood there for a moment thinking one of them would notice and say something - nope. So I went to the table next to it to sit on my own and wait. While waiting though, some really drunk guy decides it'll be fun to pick a chair up and move it even though he can't hold it properly due to all of the alcohol he's consumed, so the chair leg wacked me in the back of the head. At which point I'm so damn annoyed I said fuck this. I got up, told her I was leaving and walked out. She followed me outside (much to my surprise) and when asked what was wrong, I exploded. Telling her I'm so fed up of being ignored any time a guy pays her the smallest amount of attention. That I've had drinks spilled on me, a punch to my back and a chair to my head. What does she say? "You can't bitch, you've done it before too." Which yes, I have *accidentally* ignored her, but she's brought it up to me and I've always corrected it and made sure to include her more. I kind of figured when she noticed I was bored and said they were leaving she'd do the same - but no, she didn't. I also said that she had told me they were leaving and they still haven't and that I can't be bothered wasting my time here to be ignored. She'd said something in reply, I don't remember what and I told her to fuck off.
We'd sent a few texts that night, both bitchy. She tried to tell me that she "NEVER" leaves me out or ignores me. But isn't that what I JUST said she'd done all night? and also what she frequently does? It's almost like she's trying to justify being like that to me. Sorry, no. I don't think so. Maybe I shouldn't have yelled at her or told her to fuck off, but when this happens on a regular basis there is only so much one person can take.
I haven't heard anything from her - I don't usually during the week anyway. She usually only contacts me when it's about going out for drinks, great friend!
In any case, I will apologise after I've received one from her. I feel like I had absolutely every right to be annoyed. If she doesn't apologise - then to be honest, I'm at the point where I really just do not care.
Happy Thanksgiving to you, MJ. Sorry to hear about your Dad, 'tis a bit silly! Lol.
Also Happy Thanksgiving to anyone else celebrating it today.
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