little teaser, im sorry to hear that
well on friday i went for another echo to see how my heart is doing. we ended up lowing m y pump speed so that it makes my left ventricle work a little more. we are hoping that we can keep lowering the pump speed so that my heart will recover and work normally again. however, i've been puking soo much since saturday and i went for blood work today. im on warfarin, which makes the blood thin. if my blood is too thin, i wont stop bleeding if i have an open wound. i once had an 8 hour nose bleed in the hospital. it was horrible
and if my blood is too thick, i can get blood clots.
so yeah i need to vent about this guy i USED to like. he told me that carrying around batteries on a date is a turn off. ARGH! >:[ he made me feel sooo bad when he told me i could barely walk blah blah. i can walk now, god dammit! maybe not very fast and far.. but i can walk... my left leg/foot is healing. the swelling on my foot is almost gone.
im losing so much weight, its terrible. im 105lbs this morning when before i got sick i was 115lbs. its ridiculous how bad in shape i am.
i started physiotherapy on friday becasue i need to get as strong as i can to survive my 2nd surgery. im soo scared for it. i didnt know about the first surgery, so when i woke up, i already passed it. however, knowing about the next surgery is so much more frightening.