You are in my thoughts and I hope it all goes the way you need it to. You should not have low self esteem, you are beautiful and it seems that you are also beautiful on the inside. He will wait for you.
Good luck with everything, Miss Pumpkin, I hope you two can be together. I was LD with my partner for years! But it worked out and we are still together. It takes a lot of compromise and above all loyalty...good luck to you!