I know it's late but I'm so sorry for the hard times you had Winnie, Teresita and Allison.
I really hope you're doing fine.
If it helps, the only boyfriend I had before my lovely husband, was for 8 years and the breakup was one of the hardest things I went through. With time I've realized it was the smartest decision I took and best thing that could ever happen to me. I was in a very emotionally abusing and codependent relation, there's no way I've would ended happy girl with that guy. But that experience made me grow up stronger and wiser and really helped me to find my soulmate and marry him.
I really wish you all the truly best and that this experience help you grow up in a better, happier, stronger and wiser you. The boy that deserves you, i'm sure will come when you're ready for him.
On the Warm and Cozy side: I've been out of town with no MAC around I've just returned home to find it arrived on Friday!!
So between all things I have to do at home, I'll try to go to my MAC PRO tomorrow. I really hope I get to play with all items and make mine what I'm lemming of, wish me luck!!