People always say it gets easier but it doesn't really, you just learn to hide it better, it always hits me around Christmas time, the only deaths that I've had to cope with are my Nanna and Grandad. One of the worst days for me was when I passed my driving test because me and my grandad always talked about me driving and when he was first diagnosed with cancer he said that he would of liked to of been here for the first drive in my car. Also it got to me when I graduated university. I always think that they are still with me, when I was taking my test, my grandad was with me. They may not be here in body but they are here in spirit. X