nelyanaphonexia
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religion and I have an interesting past. My parents were an interesting couple: my mom was born catholic, had the pentacostal church shoved down her throat at a young age, then turned apathetic and eventually joined the Methodist church. My father was Methodist when he married my mom, but is very apathetic towards people in churches because he was screwed over and over and over by his fellow church goers.
So, I was raised very liberally (as compared with other around me) and was allowed to choose what I really believed. Until I went to college. I go to college in the Bible Belt, in the city where I live, there are more churches (mostly Baptist) per capita than any where else in the USA. Almost all of the people I have met from church organizations and Christian groups have been the most nasty and back stabbing people. I was in an organization with people who tried to basically kill me through making me seem crazy. It was more than just brainwashing. They treated themselves worse than they treated others. It was truly a horrible situation and a nasty group to be a part of. Like I said...brainwashing, I had to go to counciling for years afterwards, and my fiancé was in the same organization and they did similar things to him as well. They were two faced and tried on several occasions turn one of us into "officials" to make sure we couldn't see each other because they thought God told them that we were "bad" together and could create problems for their organization. I had never been that messed up before.
So, like I said. Struggling with faith and religion. I feel sad when people hate, and it seems lots of people I've met of the "super religious" type are hateful and unhappy. I have so many conflicts with "religion" and doctorines. I love free thinking and being kind to everyone. So, I can see merit in the Bible, I can see merit in almost every religion that I've studied.
Now, I'm dealing with a mother-in-law who is very hateful, but thinks she is the most accepting loving Christian out there.
I really don't understand that mindset. She is very cruel and hateful towards everyone. She is racist and cruel to those she thinks are below her, which includes me.
I wish more people were like my parents and just loved life, loved people no matter what and were just happy.
So, actively seeking my own faith, practicing something that I feel is positive seems to be where I'm at. I believe in God, but I don't believe that I can follow a modern sect of Christianity because of all the people I've encountered that abused me and my trust.
Oh, and if one more person tells me that I'm going to Hell because of what I believe I might just go postal, because it pisses me off that they think they know me and know my beliefs and have the audacity to tell me that they know my fate and future.
I'm pretty sure they have no idea....
So, I was raised very liberally (as compared with other around me) and was allowed to choose what I really believed. Until I went to college. I go to college in the Bible Belt, in the city where I live, there are more churches (mostly Baptist) per capita than any where else in the USA. Almost all of the people I have met from church organizations and Christian groups have been the most nasty and back stabbing people. I was in an organization with people who tried to basically kill me through making me seem crazy. It was more than just brainwashing. They treated themselves worse than they treated others. It was truly a horrible situation and a nasty group to be a part of. Like I said...brainwashing, I had to go to counciling for years afterwards, and my fiancé was in the same organization and they did similar things to him as well. They were two faced and tried on several occasions turn one of us into "officials" to make sure we couldn't see each other because they thought God told them that we were "bad" together and could create problems for their organization. I had never been that messed up before.
So, like I said. Struggling with faith and religion. I feel sad when people hate, and it seems lots of people I've met of the "super religious" type are hateful and unhappy. I have so many conflicts with "religion" and doctorines. I love free thinking and being kind to everyone. So, I can see merit in the Bible, I can see merit in almost every religion that I've studied.
Now, I'm dealing with a mother-in-law who is very hateful, but thinks she is the most accepting loving Christian out there.
I wish more people were like my parents and just loved life, loved people no matter what and were just happy.
So, actively seeking my own faith, practicing something that I feel is positive seems to be where I'm at. I believe in God, but I don't believe that I can follow a modern sect of Christianity because of all the people I've encountered that abused me and my trust.
Oh, and if one more person tells me that I'm going to Hell because of what I believe I might just go postal, because it pisses me off that they think they know me and know my beliefs and have the audacity to tell me that they know my fate and future.