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Originally Posted by Lizzie
Rbella, I don't know what I can say that hasn't already been said. I love you too and will be here if you need anything. And when you do have children (and I know you will some day) the world will be blessed with more wonderful little Rbellas running around and it'll be a happy day.
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I don't know if this is weird, but when I look into the mirror, I like what I see. Sure, there are some days where I feel like a troll (usually those days where I can't find anything to wear and I just noticed my eyebrows are uneven), but all in all I know I'm beautiful.
I'm not loosing weight because I think it'll make me prettier. I'm loosing weight because I know I'll be healthier.
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Lizzie...you are so wonderful and beautiful!!...and just so you know eating the boiled eggs, eating the oatmeal, riding my bike at 8am this morning, then going to water aerobics........Was ALL about me looking prettier!! Every damn gut wrenching second of it...
I think I am already healthy I just want health and beauty and not for the pockets on my pants to stand wide open and not to have to lay down to fasten my jeans and then not be able to stand up because they are too tight to move in!! To be able to dress scanky for my husband and feel sexy doing it!!! Yes, Lizzie Dag-Gone-It! you are better than me...I want Nicolette Sheridan BODY going on up over here!!!!
When I look in the mirror I see everything that I have done wrong with my eating and lack of exercise. I don;t see pretty....I want to see what you see...and it's just not happening...I see
years of just not caring or thinking my abuse of food wouldn't catch up with me.
I think I need counseling and dieting combined. Maybe loosing the weight may not change my self image..But I know that when I was thinner I felt really good about myself.